John Kennedy’s Death and How it Changed Us

I had to tell my children our president had been killed

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John Kennedy, even with his publicly reported physical frailties, was a man with an almost mythical presence. He was young and vibrant, he had a beautiful wife and two small children, and, true or not, we perceived him as the peoples’ president — as close to being one of us, his wealth notwithstanding, as we were likely to get. He was the FDR we had been wishing for.

It was accepted, we thought, that modern American presidents didn’t die from assassin’s bullets. It was unthinkable. But John Kennedy did. Walter Cronkite broke the news to us and we were forced to believe it: At 1:00 P.M. Central Standard Time, on November 22, 1963, in Parkland Hospital, Dallas, Texas, the president died .

Not long after the announcement my seven-year-old ran into the house, wild-eyed and gasping. “The principal said we had to go home,” my daughter told us. “They said to hurry. I was so scared.”

My little girl ran all the way, a half-mile from the school to our house. Her fears were local; she couldn’t fathom that much commotion unless it meant that something bad had happened to her family. The death of a president was not something she needed to worry about, but the sight of her sobbing mother made her knees buckle and she joined in, crying because I was crying.

I cried for three days; not continuously, since we had two small children who needed reassuring, but my daughter, middle-aged now, remembers that for the first time in her life she felt fear in her own home.

The TV was on from morning until night. We watched Lyndon Johnson being sworn in as president aboard Air Force One. Too soon. Too soon! We’re not ready to call him president. Impossible to avoid the bloodstains on Jackie’s pink bouclé suit as she stood silent nearby. It seemed such a brave, foolish, poignant thing to do, to continue to wear that suit still showing traces of her husband’s splattered brain. Even those who had seen the First Lady as a bit of an extraneous butterfly now held her to their hearts.

We watched the funeral — the riderless horse; Jackie in her heavy black veil, eyes hollow, staring straight ahead as John’s grieving brother, Robert, held her arm; John-John, sweet little boy, saluting his father’s casket. We watched as a procession of dignitaries followed along behind, someone’s somber voice announcing their names as they passed by the television cameras. For a few brief moments we found respite in trying to identify the Washington celebrities by sight before they were announced. But, as happened many times throughout those terrible days, reality set in: Our president, Jack Kennedy, had been murdered.

Later we watched the assassin Lee Harvey Oswald enter the jail, arms held by two armed guards, and then watched in horror as a man, later identified as Jack Ruby, lunged in front of the camera and shot Oswald dead.

Rumors flew; it was a conspiracy and not the work of a lone gunman. Oswald knew too much. Ruby had ties to the mob. Castro had orchestrated this from Cuba. The Soviets were involved. Others would die. Nobody was safe.

We didn’t lose our innocence on that day. We hadn’t been living in a fairy tale world. We had lived through WWII, had feared the Hydrogen Bomb, had been glued to the TV during the Cuban Missile Crisis, had watched as our country botched the invasion at the Bay of Pigs. U.S troops were in Vietnam and anti-war rallies were sprouting up all over the country. The civil rights movement was growing and with it came long-hidden truths about the institutionalized brutality against blacks.

We lived with uncertainty, but it was tempered and presented to us in black and white on our televisions and in the pages of Life Magazine. We had no 24-hour-a-day news channels. No internet. Our newspapers were thick with other things to distract us. We could turn it on and turn it off.

But on November 22, 1963 everything changed. We were embarking on a journey with a new president nobody wanted and nobody trusted. Our fear turned to cynicism and instead of a country held together by the pain of an assassination, we became a country torn apart by anger and distrust. The Warren Report, the exhaustive study of the Kennedy assassination, brought more doubt than closure. Three civil rights workers were murdered the following year in Mississippi and the South became a furious battleground. Vietnam war protesters took to the streets by the thousands as the war escalated and the draft forced our children into deadly battles they couldn’t believe in. The underground drug culture came up for air and flourished. And in 1968, five years after John Kennedy was killed, we lost two more good men to assassins’ bullets — Bobby Kennedy and Martin Luther King.

We’ll never know where we would be today if on that fated day in November those bullets fired from the Dallas Book Depository hadn’t hit their mark, but we do know we didn’t get over it. We couldn’t close the book; we couldn’t change the channel. Our president had been assassinated and for far too long afterward our world was an ugly place.

All during Barack Obama’s eight-year tenure I feared for him. The hatred toward him, the verbal attacks, the outright threats, the memes and cartoons showing him hanging from a tree or bloodied somehow were horrific and terrifying.

The level of murderous hatred toward this man was far beyond anything I’ve ever witnessed in my lifetime. I would like to think much of it wasn’t an act, made easier because one can remain hidden and anonymous and penalty-free on the internet, but I knew all it would take was one lone gunman hell-bent on killing the president. I was actually glad when his presidency was over, for that one single reason. He would be safe now.

The level of hatred for people who don’t agree with Donald Trump is reaching crescendo heights. I don’t fear for Trump’s assassination. The people who hate him don’t think in terms of murder. It’s the Trump supporters I fear most. The good men and women who are working to impeach this president are getting death threats. Trump’s supporters love their guns and threaten every day to use them.

We are once again living in fear, as we were in the days after John F. Kennedy’s assassination. We didn’t know who his enemies were or which of the Democrats might be next. I thought we would be a better country after that — that we would resolve our differences in the ways grown-ups are supposed to. With calm and reason and compromise. With decency and dignity.

I hope I live to see those days again.

Humor, Life, Political Opinions. Publication: Indelible Ink. Email: ramonasvoices@gmail.com Newsletter: https://ramonagrigg.substack.com/

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